Is it just me or is it them cllmax?/Me cllmax

I never have cllmaxs.
I had cllmaxs ocassionally
I can give them to myself just fine.


Which one is it? Confusing

...and was convinced that the reason I wasn't normally having an cllmax was because he would not often perform oral sex on me and that he just couldn't last long.

Well now that relationship has ended and I am having sex with someone else. We've had sex probably about 5 or 6 times. He has not brougth me to cllmax either except for once but he was using his fingers,....

You did not mention if oral is administered

The problem is not with technique or manual manipulation the issue is with expectation. Your words show that you have certain expecations that are both good and bad. It is the "expecation" the actual "mental expectation" that causes blockages between the experience and what is actually experienced.

When one's mental capacities are tuned in and when one is relaxed and comfortable which means not expecting any certain thing in return, then one can cllmax just by letting go and doing so. True cllmax is actually a letting go, not a building up.

There is this building up cllmax which we are programmed to experience and have certain expecations of and our experience is derivative of this expecation programming either good or bad. If one experiences theis pre-porgrammed or expected response it feels nice enough to build addiction to the "desire" of true cllmax.

Expected cllmax as experienced by most is rarely fulfilling and biochemically the programming is such that one will 'desire' more. Not more of the same but something "MORE" We want something better. We mentally think a certain feeling is expected yet realize we are never satified. This is a hramful cycle. True cllmax is such that you will be compltetly satisfied with just one for your entire life or you can experience them as long as you like, there is no expectation either way. This is freedom.

One can experience much more by letting go, this being articulated as resonant waves from head to toe lasting pretty much as long as one likes as many times as one likes. There is also a deep feeling of communion with whom I call my "Luvah". This natural and free expression is more representative of LOVE than the building up type of spasms one calls cllmax. True cllmax is neither harmful nor cause for addiction and lacks all of the ills of expectation, aversion, desire, control anxiety and drain that comes with sex, the physically and mentally draining spasms some refer to as cllmax until they allow what is truly present to come forth.

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