Re: Being well
If nothing you have tried works, then you must try something different.
And, in my experience, what you must try is the mindset that scares you the most.
First, do no harm.
No harmful foods, medicines that alter the body's chemistry, activities that cause injury and scarring, or mindsets that limit the free flow of energy.
Secondly, BE what you hope to be.
"I am well, attractive, busy, and enjoying life," must be your sole mindset. That will lead you to everything you need to do to BECOME well. Nothing else will.
Thirdly, change in private.
Exposing failings, disappointments, hostility, resentments, etc., in a forum like this, focusses all thoughts, yours and others, on the ailment. You'll get only more of the same.
There is no way we can know all of your life. We can only know what you tell us, and without writing a book, you can't tell us everything.
What you have told, so far, is pretty bleak. Sounds like you have tried everything, but that can't be true. What HAVEN'T you tried? That's where you must look...and, only you can do it.
Being well is the most surprising state of mind any of us will experience.
We don't know what we don't yet know. We can't. When we finally make it we are amazed at how simple the answers actually are, because being well is our natural state. Being well is simply being free of the constrictions of energy that make us sick. Being well is being immune to anything else.
Being well is your birthright...everyones birthright.
So, what would you be doing if you weren't where you are? (And I DON'T mean worse off.) Do you have the courage to build that happy state, if only in your mind, at first?
Happiness, contentment, fulfillment, are built of small pieces...tiny steps so small that you barely notice. You can tell which steps build...they always feel so good. String them together like pearls.
See the video about the work of Dzenko Domancic. Just watch it to awaken yourself to the possibility, knowing that many here already intend you to be well.
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-153936213309506589&hl=en
Then get yourself the book, "I Could Do Anything If I Only Knew What It Was."
It's NOT a quick fix...you'll need to work, and it will take dedication, but it is a far quicker fix than what you are doing now.
Maybe you need to turn yourself over to the medical people, I don't know what is right for you. But, surely it can't hurt to improve your mindset at the same time, just in case!
Fledgling