Starting day one

Today is my first day of my water fast. I need to refresh and revive my body and mind by doing this. It has been a hectic 5 weeks for me mentally due to not seeing my boyfriend since he lives about 45 minutes away. Our love is still very new and I am very insecure about various things. I know that I have a lot of faults and I can never shake the feeling that it is those things that will drive him away.

I need to focus on the things around me. Cleanse my body and my mind. I have been praying but almost like my heart is only half way into it. Any other time I have fasted in the past, my mind has cleared of the muddling thoughts of worry, my body felt fresh and new as well as I was able to extend my fast habits into the other parts of my life by directing my energy to various things.

I want to clear the path way to God. These are my goals for my two week fast

1. Open up my prayer life regarding:
a. my finances
b. my love
c. family and friends
d. Keeping positive and fighting my depression
2. Detox my body
a. clear my sinuses
b. clear up my skin
c. more energy
d. more focus
3. Lose weight
a. lose the fat from my stomache
b. find a healthier way to eat on a tight buget!
(Eating health is very hard when you can't afford the good food that my body craves. I would rather have fresh fruits and veggies, but I can't afford them on my budget)
4. Read my bible more
a. In the morning
b. In the night
5. Go to church regularly again
a. Either Saturday or Sunday
6. Focus on unfinished goals
a. working on my novel
b. working on my craft projects
c. cleaning out my spare bedroom

I know the first day is a bit easy for me. It is the second and third days that really cause me to fall with trying to achieve this goal. I just need to stay focused and my mind full of prayer during this time. God knows that I need help especially regarding my heart. I care so much yet I know that my heart is the one thing that makes me "me"

God may this fast strengthen my body, revive what is in me, and make me a more complete person. May this fast bring You glory, O'Lord and it not so much be about myself and my selfish ways.