i have some dayss where i thnk i am getting better and my symptoms are mild or barley noticble then like today wham i feel like crap. so i no what you mean. this is such a nightmare deasease, no effence to anyone but i would rather have cancer cause at least docotrs listen to you and everyone supports you in getting better and not think you are a nutcase. anyway i am praying that the treaqtment for the blasto i have will help me get better. it sounds like you will be better for next xmas, i am planning on it to as this year sucks (again)