Re: In a fiercely bad mood on day of cleanse
Hey Robin,
That is such an interesting comment about not knowing someone is angry. It makes me wonder how much I have been able to keep anger subdued in my life, too! I don't think I realized that I was/am as angry as I was/am for most of my adult life. I was depressed for a long time -- I've heard people call
Depression "anger turned inward." But then, I wonder how much I was just angry and called it
Depression because that was an OK thing to call it. (?) I mean, my
Depression never took a very sad cast, but I was certainly mad and irritable a lot of the time, and really fearful.
But I would have told you (or at least, it would have been important for the that you think...) that I was very easygoing, amenable, carefree, nonjudgmental, etc.! And I did believe that, to a viable degree. If that makes sense.
Anyway, in the past few years I have noticed how naturally my anger surfaces in even the smallest transactions or interactions. Scary, because I don't think it's a recent development, so I must have been oblivious to it for so long (though I am not sure others were, although a large part of that time I was drinking so much that you would have noticed drunk, and not much else!)
Anyway, I do hope that the Liver Flush, if I can ever get it right, will be a process that will bring more serenity. My friend I mentioned in the other post says that so much of the stuff he used to be angry about he realized were just stored toxins to a degree. (I would think such a statement was hogwash if I didn't respect him and his intellect a great deal!) I'm hoping a lot of these hostile responses I have are a combination of liver toxins and
Amalgam effects and so forth and that all of this cleansing over time will take it away....
All that said, BOY WAS I PISSED TO NOT HAVE ANY STONES THIS PAST WEEKEND! GRRRR.....
We will have to keep each other posted! Take care,
Laura
anderson3424@yahoo.com