Re: Trapper-

Thank you for your words. I'm not sure I am as much "calm and centered" as resigned. I may be facing spinal surgery early next year. I simply cannot continue with this horrible pain much longer. Even if the surgery does not help, hopefully the pain will be removed, even if I can never walk normally again. Right now I am just trying to get as healthy as I can. I need to lose 20-25 pounds, get my blood pressure back under control, and see if I can improve my digestion so my body will absorb the nutrients it needs. If I can achieve this and recover my ability to walk, that will be wonderful, an answered prayer. If I do not gain my walking, at least the surgery should have a greater chance of being successful if I am otherwise healthy-I hope. Meanwhile I am trying to conquer my fears, be more positive and count my blessings (even though they sometimes are hard to find). But, the scalpel I have tried so hard to avoid may be a part of the near future. Surgery, steroids, and strong pain meds all scare me, but I can't live with this pain any more. Tweet