Re: I really really hate this

Sorry that you are struggling.

the best advice is to understand why you feel that way.

You say you keep failing.

You only really fail when you give up trying.

What is your goal?
Who is stopping you from getting there.

For me once I figured out it was I myself who keep telling myself I can't do this ...
it was like a light bulb - wait a minute.
Why can't I ?

Of course I can if that is what I choose.
I decide what goes in or doesn't go in my mouth. The drinks the food.
I decide

Focus on the choice not to fail.
Not the negatives every time you start to have those negative thoughts
snap yourself out of it.
refocus on positives and your goal.

Good luck