Re: What's Next?

OMG girl I know exactly what you mean. It's like I have developed this personal relationship with my body because of fasting... I feel more intune with everyone. I can't imagine putting fast food into it.. I am so proud that I have responded so well to this in the 3 days I have been going its like my bosy wanted this. Needed this. I hardly feel the pangs of hunger...
I know what you mean about 4 years ago when I started getting fat... I think about how unhealthy I have become and I get so mad at myself.. Just kept buying bigger jeans. Bigger shirts. Til I was wearing my husband shirts to hide my fat... Unreal.. When did I decide to ginore it you know? What hurts the most is seeing pictures of myself. I am 6ft and was 244 but I would still wear bikini's like until I saw what I looked like (giant fat cow) in a picture I thought hey I can still wear this... I was grossing people out!!! LOL Now everyone has pictures of me as a giant cows beast.. It was so painful when they would pass them around at parties and what not. I would actually grab them and tear them up... I can't believe I was so out of control with what I put in my damn mouth... I seriously can't wait until this belly roll is gone. I always had a flat hard stomach all my life. What the heck happened? It's weird that I let it get this bad. It really is... I feel like I owe my body a great big apology...