Is it me or him?? PLEASE RESPOND!!!!!

My husband has been addicted to p 0 r n since before we were together. Hes told me a million times thats hes stopped looking at it but he hasnt. I dont have a problem with him wanting to have a romantic night and renting a p 0 r no, but I do have a problem with him sneaking to look at naked women online before I wake up every morning. I know watching two people having sex can really turn you on; it turns me on. But I dont want him looking at other women; just the women playing with themselves, naked etc. I've already had a child with him and am 6 months pregnant again. I dont want him looking at pretty young girls while Im sick and feel unattractive. We do have a good "friendship" but I dont remember the last time we've had sex or he's really "kissed" me. He gives me a peck before work every morning and maybe when he gets home, but thats all it is is a peck. We got married because I got pregnant. I was head over heals in love and I still dont think he felt the same. I know he loves me because we've been together for 4 years, but I dont think hes IN Love with me and I dont think he ever has been. He cant even get me a card on the occassions when I'd get one, like my recent birthday. We have a good life. Our child is super smart, we have a house and a new vehicle, we get along good, we have good friends and a great family, but its like its not enough FOR ME. I wanted some guy to cry when he proposed because he loved me so much, I want to be held and made love to and KISSED. I want romance and affection and instead of that, I'm getting no sex and waking up to him looking at other women. He really is an awesome guy!! He works so I can stay home with our son. No Hes never hit me or yelled at me, he lets me buy whatever I want/need, Im allowed to go anywhere, whatever. But its like hes cheating on me mentally ALL THE TIME. I dont have all of his heart. And Ive asked for it for 4 years. I guess Ill never get it. Am I wrong for thinking about a divorce or should I suck it up because I have a good life??? Yes I have a good life but Im sad. And I have 2 kids involved now. I dont know what to do or who to talk to. I dont want to embarrass him because I know p 0 r n is addicting and Im sure he doesnt look at it to intentionally hurt me. Please respond!!! Tweet