You gave me some good advice down below this post. I'm the one with the lonely mom. Thanks for that. If nothing else, this experience has probably made you a very sweet and caring person, one who can empathize with people and show them a different point of view on others. Or maybe this is just the kind of person you've always been and that's why you're in this situation. One can only take so much though. I'm sure you are a bit sensitive as are most caring folks. You need love too, go get some! Go find your peace. Live life, literally. Be strong. Have some laughs and sunny days. Go get a massage lady! And start smiling alot especially when you find some alone time. Be well.
Many sweet thoughts for you.