She won't drive me back to drinking or drugs. I quit those 9 months ago when I broke up with her. Believe me I was in a lot of emotional pain then but I didn't allow that to be an excuse to use again. My ultimate problem with her is the transparent lies and excuses. It's an insult to my intelligence. I went 6 months without talking to her and for her to reaquaint herself with me and show less interest then ever is offensive. It's not that I was shooting for a relationship with her. I mean we dated in the past when we weren't exclusive. But the way she treated me last weekend wasn't the way that anyone would treat a friend nor an aquaintence. But remembering how I got indifferent and disrespectful treatment from her will forever ruin the chances of me feeling good about dealing with her.
Part of the reason for dating is the great feeling that you get from mutal respect. This time around I felt like a nobody. I'll never forget that and even though I can be too forgiving, I'll never, ever forgive or forget last Sunday.
I appreciate you recognizing what she's doing is a game. I think that's why I posted on this board was to get other people's opinions on what they see going on here. Just in case I was being biased or too unforgiving I was looking forward to those posts as well.