You will not beleive this!

Here is my problem. I feel like I'm in a Soap Opera!

I would go to work and come home, finding him in front of the computer doing his thing, going on the chat and finding girls to talk dirty too, and twice, I found long distance bills of him calling these girls and talking dirty on the phone. I love this guy with all my heart, I supported him through his univercity, sports and life. I have him the world. I thought we had a good sex life, but something was missing. He promised me over and over and OVER that he would stop doing this stuff, but it was a bunch of lies. Finally, I caved in. We went out and bought p 0 r n magasines. I did that because I was scared that he would start going out looking for other girls, so if he does this crap at home, it's OK right.... That wasn't the only source of our problems, he liked to go out and smoke pot behind my back. He had a bad group of friends that he just could not give up and grow out of. He will be 26 this year and still acts like a kid.

In the past 2 weeks, we started shopping for engagement rings. He told me that I was the women that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with. I thought FINALLY he grew out of all this crap. To my surprise, he left me Saturday 2003-01-18. He said he wanted to leave to be able to do what he wants, when he wants. Also, that he does not want to hurt me anymore. He left and did not hear from him for 2 days. He came back to pick up some clothes and was not able to look me in the eyes.

Yesterday he finally told me that it was over for good. That we would make arrangements about the bills and stuff. He came over and told me that he did not love me anymore! After all these years that I gave my heart and soul, everything I could for this man, we shared 2 dogs... and he walks away with no cares.

NOW, yesterday he came over, crying and telling me that he screwed up. Ends out that he went to a strip bar for a bachellor party a few weeks back and met a stripper! He gave this girl his email address at WORK and chatted with her the week before he left. Last week, he met the stripper 3 times and had sex with this girl those 3 times. UNPROTECTED SEX!!! Right now, nothing is real for me. This guy needs help. PLUS he admitted cheeting on me 2 years ago, with a girl he met on the chat, and he f**ked her in my bed. He said he does it for the sex and the thrill of something new. Now he wants me back because he said these girls are nothing compared to me! NO KIDDING! I have a successfull career and well grounded, PLUS I gave him everything and anything. I am embarassed about all of this. I do not want him to screw up his life because I still love him but I don't know if I'm willing to screw up mine by going to counselling with him every week. MEN!! Tweet