I appreciate your input, grog. I guess where I am at now is to take a look at where we are at---he is really a cool guy, smart, artistic, driven, inspiring, responsible--I can't overlook how much he has added to my life. A new twist: he wants to re-join the army (national guard) with hopes of getting deployed to Iraq. Hard not to take it a little personal, but he is doing it for the benefits and good ol' American pride. He misses it I guess, though it has been like 15 years since he was in. Given all that we have or haven't done in our short marriage, it is disturbing that we are in the midst of trying to lay our own groundwork and he wants to leave. I don't know. This wild wild life...How are you?