Please Help!!!! My mother doesn't believe me!!!

I've been sexually abused since I was 2 years old. I remember my father making me fondle him and me thinking that it was all fun and games up until I was about 10 years old. It all stopped when I told my mom about it and she called a family meeting which scared my dad...of course he denied everything. But since then....he stopped all kinds of communication with me. He's dead now so it doesn't matter. But what hurts the most and the thing that I can't get over is that my mother doesn't believe a word I say. She thinks that everything that's happened to me since that family meeting...ie:shoplifting, drugs, promiscuous sex, then later doing p 0 r n....is just me being a bad girl. I realized through self-help books that I did all those things because I lost respect in my body because of what my father did to me and because my mother chose to ignore it. I just moved back in with my mother and everytime she tries to control a situation, those memories come flooding back to me. I keep thinking, why should I have to listen to you when you didn't do shit for me ten years ago? I'm 20 now, have a 9 month old daughter and all I want is for my mother to believe me, understand why I did the things I did, and to apologize for not believing me ten years ago. I tried to make her understand again but now she doesn't even remember her calling the family meeting ten years ago or me even bringing it up. Now she thinks I'm making all this up to try to get her to have a heart attack or something so that I can get insurance money! WTF???!!! The thought never even crossed my mind. I need her sooo much right now and I can't get it. What do I do???!!!
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