Hang in there! The days may be dark, but they do lighten. My mom was raped at 5 and molested at 15-16. She gave up a baby to adoption too. She had a hard time dealing, but with time and some counseling from a priest/psychitrist (he was both) came to terms with alot. The memories still hurt, but the bright days are more then the dark and she has a happy marriage.
You can get through this. Work on yourself for now, you deserve the time spent on just you!