abused as a child 
lilleycasey
19 y
3,393
RN
i am 36 years old now. i was sexually abused from the time i was 5 until 14 i guess. these men that abused me were men that my mother knew and dated. i was malested by two teenage girls when i was 10. lately i have started remebering things aboout my past and things that my father had done to me when i was younger. i don't know how to deal with these feelings.
me and my father have never been close no matter how hard i tried to get close to him. i have been sexually active all my life. never really could understand the reasonning behind it. i have tried to commit suicide twice once when i was 15 and again when i was 32.
I have been married twice both ending badly. i always want to please a man and never get anything in return. i pick alot of losers that take advantage of me.
Today i am alone. i hit the bottom two years ago quit my job and moved away from my family. i have done many things in my life that i am not proud of. i always wondered why i was never able to carry a child full term after i had my abortion when i was 15.
i guess now god decided he didn't want history repeating itsef.
today i live with my mother and my sister's son.
i am finally working again, but the bad days out weigh the good ones.
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- Re: abused as a child krupaclassy
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This is a reply to # 56,623Hang in there! The days may be dark, but they do lighten. My mom was raped at 5 and molested at 15-16. She gave up a baby to adoption too. She had a hard time dealing, but with time and some counseling from a priest/psychitrist (he was both) came to terms with alot. The memories still hurt, but the bright days are more then the dark and she has a happy marriage.
You can get through this. Work on yourself for now, you deserve the time spent on just you!
God bless and keep you. - Re: abused as a child #38515
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This is a reply to # 56,623Have you ever been to a psychologist, therapist, counselor (whatever you want to call them)? It really, really does help to have someone to talk to. Unfortunately, an awful lot of kids have been through the kinds of things you have. It's too much to deal with all by yourself, and family may be the last people you want to be around. Have you ever talked to your mother about what she allowed to happen - and didn't she KNOW something was wrong?!?!?! Now to be living with her! I had to say so many things to my mother, and that helped a lot, too.
Even if you get ahold of a "bad" therapist (and there are many, let me tell you!), just putting these things into words helps ease your mind. Do you have health insurance? If not, maybe there's something like a United Way agency in your area that might refer you to somebody who has a sliding scale fee structure.
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This is a reply to # 56,623THese people (theophostic.com) have been a huge help to me with my past hurts that interfered terribly with living my life.
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