Ana

Hi Ana,

My health is better than it has ever been. No small thanks to the curezone... who have made me very aware of nutrition, spiritual and mental health in refeshingly wonderful ways...I have had some help from an accupuncturist and also a wonderful massage therapist along the way as well. My NDE was over 20 years ago and my journey from where I was then to now has transitioned from trying to live the American Dream to becoming consciously aware of my true occupation in life...love...
Love is all there is worth doing...I left the army 20 years ago...because I just didn't want to kill anybody anymore...As far as children and a family go...I have been married and divorced twice...My NDE didn't make me perfect...But I have never stopped loving anyone...How can anyone stop loving a spouse and do that knowing that stopping loving them is the equivelent of stopping love for yourself?
I have(we don't really have children...we borrow them) three children from my first wife and I try to to be friend to hundreds of extra kids I run across along the way. Some call me dad...
I have a new love...I met the sweetest giving person...and she is kind to a goof-ball like me...You have to really be willing to forgive yourself to find someone you can give half of yourself to again..I feel like a single cell animal...I keep splitting up and have to regrow myself to become complete again.. Things are going about as good as I could ever have hoped for...My career has changed dramatically from those days in the army long ago...My main occupation now is helping others...that is all I am any good at doing...I do lots of outreach stuff for folks and I hope to make up for some of my many charachter flaws, but I guess it really is rather selfish. I get back a whole lot more than I give. It is privledge to help others...I believe that we get back 10 to 100 times what we give...so I am trying to stay on the winning side. I am currently a coordinator for a group of young people who facilitate learning for children who are learning how to do Science experiments, build solar powered cars, fish, learn about being a steward of the environment....lots of things...and I slip in kindness...with every opportunity...I trick kids into learning about loving kindness... while they are doing fun and cool projects...It seems to be a good formula... I was given a task to learn about love by God and I am doing the best I can....a fool on a mission.... Thanks Ana for your kind words...No one has posted in this forum for a while... It's great to see new friends and revisit ancient friends in this life through the medium of the internet...the curezone seems to do a fine job of fleshing out what people feel deep inside...It is hard to hide your weaknesses in the zone... Thanks for sharing your warm words... : ) rudy Tweet