Affair

I am in my mid-twenties and have been married for a few years. After my first year of marriage, my husband's sex drive dropped and things sorta went downhill. I am in great shape. I perform in venues around the US singing and dancing and always have several males following me around. I love my husband though, and always just wanted to be with him.
However, after several years of rarely having sex - and I do mean RARELY - I ended up having an affair with an older man. He's not anything at all like my husband, but he is so passionate and makes me feel absolutely beautiful. Not to mention there is nothing like being held in the arms of a Man - and I don't mean a male, I mean a MAN.
The problem is that I feel absolutely horrible for what I am doing. I know that it's morally wrong and I don't want to hurt my husband - he's still my best friend. I also care about this man I'm having an affair with - I'm not saying it's love, but I'm not saying it couldn't be either.
I really wish that things were fine with my husband and that he desired to be with me sexually. We've gone to consuling and nothing ever seems to be resolved - he says he wants me and loves me, but he's just always to tired from work and always preoccupied. I don't what to do!!! Confused and tired of feeling like the rotten girl! Tweet