Another hit...

Tracey!

I get confused around whether the cat/rat represents a thought. I keep thinking of it as a person or entity. Here's what I'm thinking....and it's a bit personal...oh well.

I have a fear somehow that my marriage won't work. Not for all the usual reasons, but for the fact that I don't know how long I can completely carry two adult human beings...financially, emotionally, in ALL ways really. I don't talk much about it because people give me the, "you shouldn't be putting up with this" thing that makes me feel really bad. I know in my heart very deeply that I'm with the right guy, and I think the world of him. He's awesome...and we definately have some karma to work out together.....good I think! But the fear seeps in, and I don't know how to get him to meet me halfway in life. I'm a bit tired and part of me thinks I've done way too much for too long. My attempts thus far to communicate this have been miserably unsuccessful.

Could the cat/rat be my thoughts/negativity about my relationship? In other words, I can't kill the negativity? Or could it be more like, I SHOULD kill the relationship (by practical/rational logic) but don't WANT to?

This is what is spinning around my head. It is the BIG issue in my life right now, so it seems fair that this cat/rat could represent it, but it's not entirely clear to me.

I'd appreciate your thoughts/insight if you have any!

love,
janaki