I will not give you any specific advice or insights about your situation. Given the inner turmoil and confusion you would not be able to follow the advice. Understanding what you are going through also does little to change it.
The first thing that came to me when I read your words was that there are a minumum or 2 entities in you, soul energies that don't belong to you. One of them has a strong food craving that cannot be stopped by eating. The entity doesn't go by how full your stomach is, it goes by its constant need to experience eating. THe other one hates being around children, for karmic reasons.
The entities came into you during trauma or emotional pain when you were much younger. There are ways to remove them. I use Sacred Santemony, but usually I can only remove one at a time. My wife also removes them. Often we work together. She is better able to determine if any other entities are left once the obvious ones have been cleared. It is best done in person, but it can be done over the phone. You may want to check out my website for information about Sacred Santemony and Lillian's work (bottom of home page)- http://www.ener-chi.com.