Re: Why? Why these things come back haunting me? :(

Dear Fire,

People can only hurt you with malicious lies
and harsh judgements if you let them. You need
to let that negativity bounce off you. There is only one person whose opinion of you counts at all: and that's you, Fire.

I suggest you sever your friendship with this
hard-drinking, scandal-loving woman. You don't
want or need relentlessly negative people in
your life. It's much, much better to be alone -- and be content in your solitude -- than hang out with lowlife companions.

Your friend is what I call a Sauerkroat. Deep
down, she's miserable about her own life. She
knows she's leading an inauthentic life. And
instead of changing her ways, she chooses,
like so many people all over the world, to
try and make other people feel as bad about
themselves, as she feels about herself. Her
unconscious rationale is that if she makes
YOU feel miserable, her own misery will somehow be lessened. Of course, that never
works, but Sauerkroats almost never learn that.

You sound like a good human being, Fire. You
need to learn to love yourself. Listen to you
Inner Guide, your deep intuition. If you
need to make changes in your life, do so.
That includes work, relationships, lifestyle,
habits, and where you live. If YOU feel like
your life is inauthentic -- not the life you
envisioned as a child, and not what God wants
you to be doing -- then strike out in new
directions. Don't let fear rule your life.

You mentioned your alcoholic and irresponsible
parents. Don't hold any resentments or anger
against them. Those two emotions hurt only
you, not them. Whatever they may have done
to you, it was because of their own wounded
souls; the deep, deep pain they felt, perhaps because
of their own inauthentic lives. If you do
nothing else in the days ahead, say to yourself, "I forgive my parents for the pain
they caused me." As time passes, you'll come
to mean it, and deep-seated emotional
tumors will be flushed out of your body and
mind.

Consider taking up meditation in some
form. Yoga lessons might open doors for you.
If you eat the SAD diet and drink too much
yourself, think about what life might be like
as a non-drinking vegetarian. There are lots
of possibilities. Your intuition will "tingle"
when you think about those changes which would be beneficial for you.

I will keep you in my prayers, Fire. Give us
some feedback when you find your true path.

Blessings,

Owen

Http://owen.curezone.com/