All spiritsouls are eternal, blissfull, and everenergetic, and made of spirit or antimatter. WE have fallen into this dark well, material universe and we have been here from time immemorial, ... due to this association our soul has forgotten our real purpose... you are now beginning to ask questions because your soul wants to awaken and be the The Supreme Personality of Godhead. Please approach a current living spiritual master for guidance. www.SrimadBhagavatam.org www.humblegifts.org www.purebhakti.com can help give you more guidance....
the living entity is actually not afraid of death, but of rebirth into this material world again, and of forgetting our Love with The Supreme Personality Of Godhead, whom is our real treasure.