Re: answers always bring more questions
Been there, done that...
Before I became a Christian I, too, searched for meaning and was very much into the occult.
But, after a while I grew weary of all the half-truths and yearned after THE TRUTH.
When you accept Jesus Christ as LORD, everything finally makes sense and you understand it all, like pieces of a puzzle falling together.
"Unless you're born again and have accepted Lord Jesus Christ as your personal Lord and Savior, you cannot understand His Word."
When I say you don't get it, I mean you don't get the message of Christianity, as you won't understand the Word unless you're Christian.
I'm not saying you don't get the pagan "mysteries", just the Christian.
I hope one day you will,
GBU