Re: lost and confused

Hi,
It seems like you took the very words out of my mouth. I feel the same way. The past week has been a horrible week of binging every single day. Today, I am beginning a fast. I plan on fasting for 10 days or so. I know that I have to get this under control. The more I overeat, the further I get away from the love of the Father! I know I do it for emotional reasons as well. I know I am very scarred emotionally, and since trying to overcome these wounds didn't happen as quickly as I would have liked, I turn to food to try to appease my emotional hunger. It doesn't work. Never has, but sometimes, I just let the flesh totally take over. I am working on this. It feels very grim sometimes. I feel hopeless oftentimes. Yet at the same time, I realize that Jesus gives me hope. He has faith in me, so much that He would die so that my full potential could be reached. I really want to live up to my full potential so that my actions don't show that I believe his death was in vain. He died to set me free, so I already have that gift. I just have to accept it. Why I forget sometimes is beyond me. I just know that He's bigger than it all and HIs love is greater than life.
I want you to know that I know how you feel. I stay home. I am lonely. I try to fill my pain with food. Then I go to the other extreme and starve myself. I know that God has bigger plans than that for me, but I can't help but feel despondant at times. I just have to remind myself that He overcame. He overcame the world and sin and shame. I feel a bond with you because from your post, our stories seem very similar. I would love to e-mail back and forth or post back and forth. God bless you.