Re: Need Advice Please!(Very Long)

Well this is kind of an update to my last post. Its now been a month and a half since she broke up with me. Ive been trying to move on with my life and havent tried to make any contact with her except I had a little too much to drink one night and tried to drop off a card and letter I had written. It wwas pretty late at night (around 3 or 4 am) and as I was walking up to door to put the note there a friend of her Dads saw me. I know he knew who I was so I turned around and got in my car and went home. I never did put the card or note on her door. I thought about it on the way home and decided not to. I wish that this was a asy for mee as it was for her. I havent been hearing anything about how shes doing or if shes already seeing anyone else or anything at all. And I know I made a mistake by even wanting to post that card on her door. It was just a simple "I miss You" card that I thought would be a way to initiate contact again. I wrote a few things inside of it about how I felt. Im better at writing how I feel then trying to explain in a conversation. I write alot of poetry and songs. I know I need to give it up and move on with my life but I think I may need more time to get over her. I know I dont want to date anyone else right now either. I tried that and it made me feel sick inside. Ive even been thinking about going to CoDA (co dependants anon) or trying to get on some kind of anti depressant. All I know now is that I think about her ALL the time and its realy having an impact on everything I do. I didnt have this hard of a time getting over my exx wife and I was together with her for 5 yrs plus I have a live in son from that marriage. I just miss my best friend. Tweet