Re: GIONG CRAZY PLEASE HELP

I FIND IT HARD TO TALK TO A COUNSELOR IVE TRIED THAT BEFORE IM SCARED,IF I LEAVE WORK HE SAYS HE WILL TRACK ME DOWN,HE HAS ACESS TO MY HOME ADRESS PHONE NUMBERS ETC,

iVE COME TO REALISE THAT WHEN IVE WITH HIM ALTHOUGH HE BRINGS ME HAPINESS TAKING ME AWAY FROM THE FEAR OF MY FATHER WHO HAS BEEN AGRESIVE ANDF VIOLENT TOWARDS ME IN THE PAST,I GUESS IM A\T A VUNERABLE POINT,

i FIND MYSELF TO BLEME FOR THIS WHOLE MESS WITH MY MANGER ITS GETTING OUT OF HAND,YES I DO THINK HE IS A VERY GOOD TALKETR,EVERY TIME IIM AWAY FROM HIM I THINK TO MYSELF IM GOING TO WALK AWAYSFROM HIM I END UP COMING ONTO HIM WHEN IM AT WORK,

im way to emotionally attached,

Justrealising how iressponisible this man is he tried to haver unprotected sex with me,its like what is he trying to achieve does her really want me to have his baby too,

I hate him becauswe i am emotionally atttached to him,inm already hurting writing this feeling the pain,IVE HADE A TROUBLEDC CHILHOOD,JUST LOST ME NAN,ME DADS NOW IN HOSPITAL,MOSTT OF THE GUYS I HAVE GOT TO KNOW ARE AFTER ONE THING ANYWAY,WHICH HAVE LET ME 2 BELIEVE THAT IM A SEXUAL OBJECT RATHER THAN AN ACTUAL PERSON,GOT IN IN MY HEAD THAT A REALTIONSHIP IS JUST ABOUT THE SEX AND MEN AINT INTERESTED IN IT FOR WHO YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE,YET I SHUDNT BE GIVING MY BODY AWAY TO JUST ANYONE,

IM SO CONFUSED AND AT A VERY VUNRABLE STAGE,NEAR BRAKING POINT,DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ANYMORE,I CONFIED IN THIS MAN,I OPENED YUP TO HIM I TOLD HIM EVEYTHING ABOUT ME,ITS HURTS SO MUCH BECAUSE EVEN NOW HE EVWEN ACTS LIKE HE CARES BY SAYING I NEED SOMEONE TO LOOK OUT FOR NE AND THAT HWE WILL BE MY ROCK,which yes it could be a ployy tio get me into bed,cant believe ive been stupid to let this man get so close to me,I feel sick and disapointed in myself,i knew what i weas letin myself in for and have been living in a fantasy world trying to seek a little hapiness obviosly in ther wrong guy

what a mess sometimes i fink to myself i would be beter of dead,whats the ponit in living if you cant be happy,I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP ALOT,AS MYDADAS CASING ME ALOT OF PYCHOLOGICAL STRSS WHEN HE DOESNT LASH OUI IM STILL SCARE HE WILL HIYT ME AS HE SWITCHES,ITRS POSIBLE HE HASD MANIC DEPRESSION,THIS IS PROBLLY WHY I HAVE SEEKED CONFORT IN THIS OLDER MAN! Tweet