im seventeen and think i have fallen in love with a guy of 24 hes my bosss at worked who hasmade a ply for me since i first started last septmeber.,the problem is he has two small childern and a girlfrerind that he is living with.

Im fidng it hard to deal with as i love him as a person very much,he kept pesterin ng fome for a date konwwingthere was such stong chemistry beetween us both.

I kept saying nobecuase of many reasons ie he practically a married man,that gihis girlfreind would be upset if she found out,Ithought asbout how she would be feeling bring up 2 kids when her boyfreind wwas playing away,Its totally wrong ,i know that imn my mind,

Howeever as time has gone on its got worse i cant aviosd this man as hes my boss,Underneath it all he is the most kindest ,loving caring affectionate man you could ever meet,anyway things become bad at work,we statede kissing eachother and getting very close,when we were together,we seemed really happy together,Evetyone could tell how much we liked each other,

Its very difficult,im very unhappy in this part of my life,my dad has problems and hits me for small reasons,its phychological damiging as i live in fear,this man brought alot ogf hapiness into my life and still manages to get me t o smaile eveytime he swees me,He gives me his all,

Yet this one night a woman phoned me up,you guesed it his girlfreind,VWERY POLITE LADY,which was quite suprising as he had told me that he is not in love with her anymore,that theyu are only together for the kids sake and that she is xconstantly gibving him grief,

She told me how she doesnt mind me being friends with her boyfirend ,anmd tsked me if anything was going on with me and gher man,that she was near a breakdown i told her no as i didnt have the heart,and felt so guilty,

AFTER THIS CALL I FELT SO ANGRY WITH HIM FIR (Far-Infrared-Sauna) TRYING TO PURSUE A REALATIONSHIP WITH ME WHEN HIS GIRL STIL LOVES HIM,yuet i havnt had chance to go mad at him as iv just liost my nan and am greiving despite this,i still fink about him loads and him this same as he keeps phoning me noo stop,havnet seem him for three weeks and it seems we misss each alot,

I know this has got to stiop becaues despite what youhave just read i am a caring person,HIS GIRLFRIEND DOESNT DESERVE ANTY ODF THIS,BUT MY HEARTS BREAKING TOO,he means alot too me,

i KNOW AT FIRST I THOUGHT HE WAS TRYING TO GET HIS LEG OVER AS USALLY ALL OLDER MEN DO GLAD TO SATY I HAVNT SLEPT WITH THIS MAN ,BUT HAVE DONE EVERTYTHING BUT,i THINK THERE IS A GENRAL ATTRACTION,HES SAYS ITS KILLING HIM NOT BRING Able to see me ,as i lkeep knockking him back,ii keep trying to denie the way im feeling about him asd its wrong,I dont understand him he is risking so much by acting theway he is with me,atwork he cvolud lose his job as it is cleatr to all of the management above him that he flirts weith me they all suspect something is going on,abnd hjis gitrlfirend and kids if they knew the truths,i knowe that he loves his kids with alll his heart,so whyrisk all this for me,i dontr understand him,idont think any of this was menat to happen we just grew closer togetherhowe do i get iover him or even forgety about him,PLEASE HELP THIS IS ALLL IVE BEEN FINKING ABOUT FOR MONTHS ITS DOING MY HEASD IN,any sujestions

SORRY TO GO ON ABIT