I am down in the dumps today need encouragement

I am depressed today. tired of all the candida has taken from me, tired of suffering , tired of fighting, tired of avoiding people because I do not feel well. I have gotten alot better in the last few weeks, but still have symtpoms and I struggle. I just can't even feel positive about the progress I may have made because I feel like I don't know for a fact if i am really getting better or not. Logically I know my symptoms have greatly improved, but emotionally I am spent and can't seem to tolerate anything anymore.

I wanted to get my hair cut for Christmas so I don't look like such a rag, but the fact is that getting my haircut creates alot of stress for me. Just knowing I have to sit in the chair for 30 minutes causes me anxiety because I worry about starting to feel ill. It's hard to fake it and not let on to anyone for fear of being thought a weirdo.

Does anyone else go thru this? Does anyone else have to pschologically prepare for every littl;e thing. This is NOT me. I am outgoing, social. I love poepl, and I used to love to go to the salon. I loved everything about, the smell of shampoo, the steamed up windows, the aromatherapy , now I dread it and I have for years. Why , just because I have to sit there for 30 minutes. I am so afraid of having an attack of not feeling well.

Michelle