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I am depressed today. tired of all the candida has taken from me, tired of suffering , tired of fighting, tired of avoiding people because I do not feel well. I have gotten alot better in the last few weeks, but still have symtpoms and I struggle. I just can't even feel positive about the progress I may have made because I feel like I don't know for a fact if i am really getting better or not. Logically I know my symptoms have greatly improved, but emotionally I am spent and can't seem to tolerate anything anymore.
I wanted to get my hair cut for Christmas so I don't look like such a rag, but the fact is that getting my haircut creates alot of stress for me. Just knowing I have to sit in the chair for 30 minutes causes me anxiety because I worry about starting to feel ill. It's hard to fake it and not let on to anyone for fear of being thought a weirdo.
Does anyone else go thru this? Does anyone else have to pschologically prepare for every littl;e thing. This is NOT me. I am outgoing, social. I love poepl, and I used to love to go to the salon. I loved everything about, the smell of shampoo, the steamed up windows, the aromatherapy , now I dread it and I have for years. Why , just because I have to sit there for 30 minutes. I am so afraid of having an attack of not feeling well.
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This is a reply to # 295,696Hi Michelle,
I used to feel this way too when it first hit me. I was afraid to leave the house someday's and when I told my doctor that he of course said that it sounded like anxiety and agoraphobia and said to take the xanax. I found only one of my friends was tolerable to be around because he was the only person I felt didn't judge me or think I was a weirdo. My own brother and I actually aren't even speaking because of my whole illness right now. He thinks I am crazy and it has been extremely hurtful so it is easier for me not to talk to him because I am so tired of defending myself and feeling embarassed. It is very hard to explain this situation to other's because most people think you are a quack - I think that alone caused most of my anxiety...feeling like no one believed me and like everyone was talking behind my back about what a lunatic I am. It just adds to all of the stress we are already under when you don't have support. I definitely always had to plan and prepare if i was going to leave the house to go see a friend or to go see a movie - this almost always caused anxiety - sitting in a theater crowded with people...and in fact that is exactly why I didn't do anything on the weekend for almost two months except hideout in my bedroom. And during the week, I went to work and spent probably three days a week after work going to see different doctors or have different tests run only to find that all of my tests were normal and of course the doc's thinking it was all an anxiety problem.
Well, I haven't taken anxiety pills probably in close to two months now and I am doing much better no thanks to doctors. But I still have days like you where I feel totally emotionally drained...and some days I feel like I am never gonna get through this or beat it...on those days I just let myself cry as much as I want to. And then tomorrow is a new day! I also try to think back to two to three month's ago where I didn't know what was wrong and I was scared as hell...and having so many more symptoms than I have now and much more intense...and that reminds me that I am slowly chipping away at this thing. So, I know it isn't an answer to how to get through it because you seem to do the same thing I do...think about how much better you are...but at least you know you are NOT alone!Advertisement
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This is a reply to # 295,699Music always helps! Light some candles in the bathroom and run you a heavy Epsom Salt bath. Watching the candles flicker, soft jazz, and thinking back to the fun times I had as a kid, or just anything positive helps me. Try some soft Jazz and get caught up in the beat. Thump your fingers on the side of the tub, knod your head, make some body expressions as if you are really enjoying yourself and who knows you just might for a little while. Just think postitive thoughts!!!!! And if you can't, just keep acting the part with your body. Your mind might get jealous. Don't get your water real hot and check your blood sugar, that may be the reason for your slumps. Happy Thumping, JohnnyAdvertisement
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This is a reply to # 295,696Hey Michelle,
I know exactly how you feel - quiet funny actually because I had very similar thinking today. This feeling of not being able to do it anymore - the question if this is really helping or just staying bad or even getting worse. I feel almost everyday like sh.. - my boyfriend how had the same thing but more severe says that´s normal - all in all in goes up but very slowly.
I also start to avoid people - well, I am evoiding them all exept my boyfriend. Even though I bore myself so much being alone I cannot cope with others. Everything is stressing me. Even planning the food (pre-cooking) if I spent a whole day out of the house. AND I also have a hair problem: On a good day last week I was sitting at the hair dressers for 3(!!!) hours got my hair colored. Today I discovered that the colour is washing out already and my roots are being seen again. This little fact stressed me out so much that I almost started to cry - because I don´t have the strength to call, complain and make an other appointment... everything is too much. Do you have any suggestions what to do with all the "dizzy" time exept watching TV? I try to read and follow my studys but I can hardly concentrate on what I try to learn and forget it immediately.
But: if you feel like shit now, it can only get better!
Keep your head up high. you started fighting this f...... candida and you should win.
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This is a reply to # 295,696You are not alone. I have been extremely despressed for several days now. I am just so tired of being sick and tired and fat from the damned crap! Today was very hard because I had to go out X-mas shopping with my mom. I am 39 and have a young looking face, so if I had the body to go with it, I would love to have all those hip, sexy clothes. But the Candida has wreaked havoc with my weight and I am forced to wear dowdy clothes from the plus sized department and I nearly broke out in tears just looking at them today.
About the salon, when I was at my worst, it was hard for me to go for those two hours (I used to color my hair red back then). For me, the restless legs and pain was the worse and I used to have to constantly switch positions all the time. Plus I would get the anxiety about flipping out in front of everyone or something. I still have the leg twitching, but not nearly as bad. May I ask what protocol you are on?
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This is a reply to # 295,709I eat practically nothing. Very strict diet, have been for about 6 months. I am positive the candida are dying. I take multi vitamins, strong ones three times a day, extra cakcium magnesium, vit c, probiotics 4 times a day and coconut oil. getting ready to change over to garlic for rotation.
My problem is nervous system , neurological. I was terribly sick and scared all summer. The hideously horrible symptoms starting letting up a little in beginning of November. After speaking with a Dr. that is a specialist in Candida we came to the conclusion that candida caused me horrible malabsorbtion which in turn caused mineral deficiencies which in turn causes most of my symptoms. I had burning in my head face, disorientation and terrible anxiety, then that changed to a cold sensation on my head face , down my back and arms along with disorientation and anxiety , now I mainly have some anxiety and a very tiny bit of disorientation and a very small amunt of cold sensation periodically.
When I start getting an attack I jusat want to be able to get up and leave and go be quiet somewhere, having to sit there while I get my hair done creates anxiety because if I have a problem I cannot get up an leave with my hair half cut. I know it sounds stupid. If someone had said this to me a year ago I would think they had issues. I guess that is why I am so self conscience, because I know what i would think of me.
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This is a reply to # 295,713that's the problem with anxiety...some is truly physical but most of it is mental and they more you think about what could be, the worse it gets...it is so tough but anyone who has experienced anxiety knows that exact feeling. all i can say is it sucks and it takes time to learn how to calm yourself down. my mom has a meditation/relaxation tape she uses that focuses on breathing...it can almost always bring her out of a panic attack. do you have an ipod? those earphones are really small so they could probably be worn while she cuts or colors...maybe the hairdresser wouldn't mind if you listened to music while she did your hair. just a suggestion but it might help you escape reality a bit.
i never had anxiety problems before the candida either. it is strange to go from a normal stable person to someone who is afraid to live life normally and even sit at a restaurant with friends. i kept waking up in the middle of the night with panic attacks for the first month or so - it was horrible. and it was affecting me at work pretty bad too. i have a weekly meeting - wednesday mornings to go over what is going on in my department with other managers and there were times i would have to leave the room for awhile and calm myself down because i would get so anxious and nervous - my palms would be dripping in sweat. i didn't understand it...i have always been sort of shy and had a hard time speaking in front of groups but i was out of control! funny but i was always nervous in the meeting even before the candida really took over my body but i attributed it to my fear of public speaking...i would always just take the easy route in the meeting and say that i really didn't have anything going on that i needed to let other's know about even though i did...it was my way of avoiding the talking and anxiety. now that i am treating myself and getting a lot better i have no problems at all talking and can actually do my job much better than before this whole thing even started. it leads me to believe the candida was really creeping up slowly for a long time and then it finally hit me full force this past july throwing me into full fledged panic attacks. all that time i couldn't understand why i was so nervous and anxious but now i know one hundred percent that those suckers were multiplying inside me. i just keep piecing things together now - thinking back to different situations and emotions i had over the last year and a half while on Antibiotics and so many things are making sense to me now that didn't before. trust me...the more you heal...the more the anxiety goes away. eventually it will be a distant memory...many of my symptoms almost seem like they never even happened because it has been quite some time since i have had a lot of my initial problems. i bought a book on anxiety called panic phobias and fear or something like that...can't quite remember. it might be something you could do...something to help you out with the mind over matter.
funny you should all mention the hair thing...i have a hair appt tomorrow afterwork and i am actually a little nervous about it. not because of anxiety anymore, but because when i last got my hair done (about 6 or 7 weeks ago) i remember being under the hair dryer and my head really started burning not just from heat but from the chemicals....kinda freaked me out. and i changed face washes recently and noticed that i seem to react to it in a bad way. i have no problems with perfume..at least not my own...but i can't stand the smell of cigarettes on others and i seem to have some weird chemical sensitivities now.
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This is a reply to # 295,714hi guys yes i know what it is like to cry at a drop of a hat. i recommend getting lousie hay books. according to her we can create our health problems. she says that candida is "from feeling very scattered. lots of frustration and anger. demanding and untrusting in relationships. great takers."
The positive affirmation to help yourself heal "I give myself permission to be all that i can be and i deserve the very best in life. I love and appreciate myself and others"
my friend is sending me two of her cds to help clear clutter from the past. quite often being unwell is linked to your past and not letting go etc. anyway i find lousie hay really helpful especially when i have avery bad day. I just remember that everything will be ok.Advertisement
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This is a reply to # 295,696Tired and depressed might simply mean you are going a little too quick with the treatment. Slow it down - reduce on whatever treatment you are doing now and carry on with the antioxydants and the sky will turn to blue!
I can TOTALLY identify with all of your symptoms (and tears come to my eyes while I write theses lines - my adrenals behaving!!!). My social life is reduced to SO little. I would never have thought I could survive such little warm social input.... the fact is my body has other needs.
And about
Drinking plenty.... I was thinking of you recently when I read about sodium AND /OR POTASSIUM deficiency as potential deficiency makingo ne thirsty all the time. [Can't seem to cut and paste it, but do a google search for Potassium : An essential Nutrient to read it]
Celery and carrots are full of potassium and great fiber to keep your bowels active. as a snack or with a meal... every day
Here's your prescription from DR. J:
Carrots or Celery + green apple /day
(feel the difference)
and here is the bill from DR. J:
Love and kisses
Jhan
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This is a reply to # 295,719Interesting this inside struggle you are going through, to say the least.
I did not read any of the above and I might simply repeat what has been said to you already, but basically you are telling us that your mind and body are struggling badly. Your mind feels a haircut would bring a bit of self-esteem to your ego while your body reminds you that you are allergic to so many of these aroma from the salon that it is definitely NOT a good idea- Yet, your psycholigal side badly needs it. What to do?
I guess you should arrange for a haircut at home and miss on some of the typical salon environemnet.... until your allergies are over.
It used to be a nightmare for me to clean my flat. I finally found this one and unique detergent I was not allergic to- a toilet liquid wash actually - and I had to stick to this one, at different concentration, for all of my household needs.
LISTEN TO YOUR BODY GIRL !
Learn to identify your allergies more closely
and
Have a Merry Merry Christmas with people you love.
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This is a reply to # 295,696This is a very familiar theme and one that has hit a nerve. I think most of us with candida feel or have felt like this (and yes I also had a phobia of the hairdressers - my hair is currently half-way down my back!)
I posted a web site earlier down this page that explained the processes the body goes through when suffering from anxiety. It demonstrates how the body behaves during sleep to cope with the anxieties we put ourselves through during the day and how this in turn makes us awaken with reduced hormones levels, feeling exhauseted - this exhaustion feeds our anxiety and so the cycle continues. I followed this cycle right through to suffering from paranoia and chronic fatigue.
This cycle can be easily broken and (as I have said earlier)is probably crucial to overcoming candida. All the money in the world won't make you feel any better if you do not understand this cycle. I got rid of my chronic fatigue in one week and have subsequently gone on to overcome the most difficult parts of die-off.
I consider throwing large amounts of money at candida, hoping it will go away to be foolish without reading this FREE information first. Anxiety and Depression is a major characteristic of candida and it can be dealt with easily to achieve the results we all hope for. Rashes, sinus problems, digestive problems etc are all physical symptoms of candida but it is the mental stress that weakens us the most.
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This is a reply to # 295,696I am doing a little bit better today. I have my haircut appt. in 1 hour and am getting nervous. God, I wish I could just be normal, I pray for that. It's really all I want. I have been telling my hubby I don't need any gifts for Christmas, just my health back. I just want a normal life, so badly. I feel like I have been thru the ringer and emotionally I can't take it anymore. I know I am improving. But for some reason I am not happy. I want more, I want it to be totally gone. looking back on my life I realize it has always been something with me. My health has always been crappy. And although I usually figure out what to do for certain ailments and eventaully they go away, my ? is why does it have to happen at all. I am banking on the facy the candida has done alot if not all of this to me. I sometimes get really angry and frustrated , why can't doctors help us. The problem with many Drs is that they have never been sick themselves. They have no compassion. Well, enough of my ramblings.
Just knowing that there are people in the same boat as me and we have eachother to lean on means alot. I will get thru the haircut today, I will. I want it so I will do it. Leading up to it is the worst part.
Thanks for the suggestions from everyone. I read every message and I really appreciate everyone taking time to lift my spirits.
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