Water Fasting Buddy Needed!

Hello! I'm looking for a fasting partner for a 30 to 40 day water fast. I've completed some short fasts over the last year and my longest was 25 days which was very successful in terms of weight loss and overall health benefits. I completely healed the inflammation in my left leg, cleared up my acne, and lost 35 pounds, 20 of which I managed to keep off. Before the fast I would gain and lose the same 15 pounds time and again, since completing the fast unfortunately I gain and lose the 15 pounds, but in a lower weight bracket if that makes sense. So while I lost the 20 pounds, I still gain and lose 15 but I never got back to my original weight. It's strange, almost like I convince myself to stop being a super-pig before I go over a certain amount but then I can't let myself get below a certain amount either before I go super-pig again. I know it's self sabotage and my therapist says it's psychological, but I really need to lose more weight, get healthy, and stop with this yo-yo crap. I want to do a really long fast because I know that the longer you fast the more health benefits you get and of course the more weight you lose. Lately I've been trying to start the fast but I can't get past the first day for some reason. I think if I had a fasting buddy where we could hold each other accountable and support one another when the other is feeling like giving up then I'd have a better chance at success. So if anyone is interested then let me know and thank you in advance!