i also have the same kind of situation as you have. i don't know what to do i can't apply my professional skills as computer programmer. As of now i just got an entrance exam for military service i hope i pass the exam and start training w/c i think a life changing cause training in the field is hard to me. I cry sometimes when i think about my pass memories , opportunities and my teenage life hiding and running away from people.
I dont know what will be the next. If i only have a friend who will offer me a job w/c i will feel comfortable.