Health concerns when beginning extended water fast.

Hello everyone. I've struggled with bulimia for 7 years and recently with binge eating disorder as I've been unable to purge. Over the course of two years I've gained a substantial amount of weight which I was in denial about due to stressful circumstances in my life that kept me distracted. Recently I've had more time to myself and realized what damage I've done to my body. This sent me into a tailspin of straight binging for 6 weeks, consuming as much as 10,000 calories per day. When I meditate, I can FEEL this extra fat on me and it is very distressing. I want to get back to my true self - physically, spiritually, mentally. I feel like I need to do an extended fast and not eat until true hunger returns. I feel like my body is capable of this and it is my mind which tells me this is unhealthy, not realistic, etc. If I'm honest with myself, and look into my soul, I truly believe my body will not want to eat for several months. Today I am on day 3 of my fast. I've only told one person of my intensions, she is a very close friend and said how unhealthy it is and that sent me into a panic attack (I also struggle with severe anxiety). I would like some reassurance from anyone who has done an extended (longer than 30 day) water fast, that what I am attempting is realistic, acheiveable, and healthy. I am NOT trying to destroy my body or starve myself. My intensions I believe are truly good - I'm trying to heal my body and mind and feel this is something I need to do....now. I am also in college and am worried that it will interfere with my ability to concentrate/study. Has anyone done an extended fast while also working and/or going to school? Thank you. Tweet