Re: Someone to listen, understand..please...

Hi,
I understand you as I am also in so bad health state that I virtually have no life. You need to try hard to get things at least under some control to think clear and afterwards investigate.
For beginning I second as well the suggestion for Vitamin D huge dose, and I will add also a STRONG recommendation for Reishi spores, taken with hot water on empty stomach, 6 grams per day. In 2 weeks you will feel like a new person. If you add Bacopa you will improve much more mentally, but I do not recommend it on the long term because it tends to accumulate mercury.
Second, if you think you really have parasites, take the following stuff:
Diatomatious Earth (Food grade!!!) works mechanical for big worms as it cuts them in pieces, no resistance possible. Be careful again, as it can cointains some heavy metals and measure the risk - do not take it for longer than 2 months. As for herbs, check Medy Flowery Medikzap from Poland, they have the strongest herbs for parasites I have touched ever, I had a die off so strong I was feeling like in hell for 1/2 of the dose when I tried them for first time.
Looking into zappers is a must, as well, check out parazapper.
Finally, consider testing and looking into mercury, BUT only if you do it per Andy Cutler (check Frequent dose chelation group on yahoo), otherwise you can mess up you much worse with cilantro an other suggested protocols on the internet.
Good luck and don't worry, I have been suicidal as well lots of times, but you need to remember - things will always be OK, bad period is always follow by getting better. Think about your kids and wife, they need you.