Someone to listen, understand..please...

New to this forum folks. I feel like I am slowly dying. Doctors won't listen to me, My family thinks I'm crazy at times, and I just don't know where to turn anymore. I have extreme crying bouts, obsess over my declining health..I feel I have a parasite, either Strongyloides, Disseminated Toxocara, or else Filariasis from being in Jamaica in 2010. I have so many symptoms it would be a nightmare to list them all, but it's getting to the point where it is hard to raise my arms just to type without being in pain. I've taken several courses of animal medications, Valbazen suspense and Ivermectin paste with no relief of symptoms. I just slowly get worse and worse. I can't work because of the severe anxiety and social anxiety disorder I have developed over the last 2 years, So I contribute nothing financially to my family (3 kids and wife). Today was the first time I ever really considered taking my own life, which means it has gotten really, really bad for me. I just need someone who understands, someone to listen, and maybe give me a direction to go in. I feel like this will be my last Christmas alive, because I'll just succumb to all these issue with my health eventually. It's killing me inside.