Nothing is Helping. Constant Suicidal Thoughts

I really hate to pull out the "S" card, but it is obvious that I am somewhat desperate for help. I have come up with all of these natural therapies to try and help myself and others. I truly hope they are working for public, but they are no longer working for me.

I am not looking for any moral support. I am honestly hoping someone jumps on here at the "right place, right time" with where I can turn for a cure. I don't care whether it's a treatment or a doctor - just something that has worked for them or ones they know in the past. Just what does it take to kill the fungus for good? After 3 years of research, I have yet to find someone completely recovered from mold illness. It looks like the odds are better for curing cancer. It is ironic though, because I believe cancer can be caused by fungus. For all I know I could have cancer by now. I just refuse to have doctors cut me open for testing. Then they would push chemo on me which I would refuse. It's a lose lose situation.

My angst tonight comes from my chronic neck and sinus pain. It is now happening more frequently, and I am unable to leave the house when it happens. I know I am doing the right thing not resorting to OTC meds, but if it gets bad enough I will have to.

This Superwoman felt like one three years ago when she created her screen name, but now she feels like a statistic.

And for all of you who have taken the time to read this and don't know how to respond, you now have a real life example of how hopeless this disease can be. Consider yourselves lucky if you aren't feeling as depressing as this post. Tweet