Re: Fasting for Gratitude

Dizzy five times. The last time I saw black while trying to adjust from sitting. Don't feel weak anymore. Had cravings for tri-mashed potatoes for half an hour. Heartburn for another minute. Played dual n-back n=5 twice on my iPad. Get bored for it easily, even though I know it is good for me.

I wonder what God will say. Spencer Knight loves me profoundly but does not want to marry. George Lu used to love me deeply, but not anymore and I am better without them. He still likes me somewhat. My little uncle, mom, Thomas, and I plus grandma can eat very little to make grandma live five years younger, or ten if it's one meal a day, etc. Without a cup of cocoa everyday, she can live a certain number of years but ten more years if she eats cocoa like I prescribed her. But no more than one cup a day. One can have too much. I feel God's presence as sparkle, magic, pressurized, heated, passionate, stronger, pink with yellow dots and wisps of blue and purple and gold. Grandma can live ten years longer if I succeed in life. I will not faint but will be weak, but it won't be hard to deal with. I need to know that my mom loves me the most of all and listen to every word she speaks. Tweet