If I am going to die from this then let it not be in vain. I would be fine with people acknowledging I had this, I fought, and maybe I didn't win. I can only do so much on my own without the help of doctors. I asked a nurse friend tonight if I should tell my GP what is happening, and she said, "No, he won't believe you. Only a naturopath would believe you". So I fear seeing my GP and being completely honest. I certainly don't need him commiting me to a mental ward when I am very physically sick. This whole situation breaks my heart. I want to be well like others.