I feel the same way as you depressedstressedgal, feel like I'm being punished for something. With this condition there is one thing I turn to; food as people aren't there for me and I can't imagine going without the foods I love to please these people around me who never cared anyway I'm kind of bitter, but I haven't gotten around to the diet yet, perhaps I need to change my environment and break the cycle of addiction. I also wanted to die too many times to count but due to my religious beliefs I'll wait until God decides my time is up. Yes life is hell with this, but we can gradually train our bodies to like healthy food like a vegan lifestyles, there are many people living that way. I just wish I knew if a diet would help my case or not I'm not sure but I think in most cases it will.