It isn't a thought, me leaving him I mean. He saved me from something so horrible and he does love me a great deal and I do for him as well. I just don't know what I can do AND stay with him. I love him more than anything and I know you think it easy, leaving him, but it's not when I care soo much about him. I would say the same thing if I were looking upon the computer screen reading the distressed message that I composed... but it's always different for the person in the situation. Thank you both for your advice though...