You just described the hell I am going through like a fly on the wall. My situation isn't nearly as bad only because we haven't married. One reason is he's in a divorce currently with also a narc.( I'll use this abbreviation) when referring to the toxic people. I had no idea what in Gods name was so wrong with this " family" until I stumbled onto a Dr.Phil show this summer. Its like a light went on. A light house sized light. I am actually better at dealing with it all since I at least know what the hell is up with them. It helps very much to just read about the traits and reasons. I'm a digger for knowledge. Id rather know the truth than a pretty painted version which is the complete opposite of a narc. The "sweep it under the carpet"doesn't fly with me. The ordeal began the first day I met his family. The day
they bombarded us like a reunion. It has been my understanding to run for my life. Staying neutral at all cost. Unfortunately I hide more than I run. Running only gives them further fuel. I don't like using the word " hate", but it evokes hatred when I am near or hear anything about his ex or his family. Including his narc kids. I'm in limbo of what to do. Questioning if I should end this relationship altogether. How long will I be able to stand it. Even knowing how these cult members are competes against my wits and what I should do about my relationship with him. Thank you for helping by sharing your horror.