Thanks for the replies. For now I'll just do what I think I'll do and what I think is best. Time is so fast. Back then I was in my childhood , so much fun and ignorance but boom the truth just smacked me heheh. I'm having much fun at school but I just feel it's a total waste and total lies compared to the fun I could have outside and growth I could have with the things I would love to do.
your replies made my perspective about life more clear and on my current situation... life is so harsh especially if you are on the muddy path heheh. I just have to find my way. Thanks so much!