Do you have anything you truly enjoy and have a passion for, like music? Spending time on something you love could help a lot.
I really feel for you. I'm impressed that you've figured all this out at 14 years old, it's highly unusual.
This is a tough one to figure out because almost all jobs require a high school education. I wouldn'tt rush this decision. If you go to College, perhaps you could look at a trade (I'm not sure what your interests are?)
I hated going to school but I didn't mind studying, if that makes sense? I liked keeping my mind active.
Most of us are caught in a similar thing with our jobs. We need money to live so we go to work every day because that's how we survive.