Fasting is like breaking up with a bad boyfriend

Hey thats how I feel about this whole thing... when I broke up with my ex 8 years ago... I honestly still did like him but the relationship was so bad that I decided to get out of it... very smiliar to liking bad food....

During our last 2 years together, I broke up with him but made up with him again-- the transition took 2 years.. and on my last call to break up with him.. I gave myself a 40 day deadline..

If I dont answer his calls for 40 days-- it means I am really done with it! And I will never come back.. I vowed to myself that after 40 days he will never have an effect on me anymore and that I could see him eye to eye and say.. hey we are done! thank you!

But the 40 days actually became about 90 days--- why? because everytime I answer his calls I reset my diary--say for example on Day 6- I answered his call... then I say to myself am back to Day 0... so the next day was Day 1 again...

well thats the case with my THird OJ Fast---I made it until Day 5 --- Day 6 & 7--- I ate something.... so what culd have been day 8 & 9 -- is back to day 1 & 2... and I hope I can finish this by end of October.. without reseting the clock again...

and am sure once am done with the 40 day OJ fast-- its really 'hey we are done!-- bad foods!!"