I feel so let down, knowing that the wars we are in are
nothing more than a new mission that kept us from having to pick up cigarette butts but yes... moving on is what I did too. I give back... I help now where I plotted and schemed before... I too meditate... But each day I get that nagging feeling that I could
have done more... to stop the endless wars... and still... I still get moments of self loathing, every day, for what I could have done or what I did not stop... and more... for being me...
but I remember how much the Light loved me... even though... I had and have so many character flaws... Being at peace starts with one's self... So, I understand what you are saying...