Going crazy trying to figure out what's wrong with me :(

I am ready to go crazy. For a year now I've been searching for answers to what is wrong with me. I believe I have a rare parasite and it's affecting me inside and out. Recently I started pooping strange white and brown segments and when I put them under my microscope I can't really determine what they are. They kind of resemble tiny pieces of bacon. When this first happened to me (last Friday) I called my doctor immediately and was so sure that finally I would get help. Doctors do not like to look at samples, even if they're sealed in a bag. My doctor asked me if I've been seeing my therapist and if I'm taking any different medications, etc. I felt so humiliated. This is not in my head!!!!!!! I also thought my husband would finally stop hassling me and say that he was sorry but he's so verbally abusive. He's abusing me verbally now so I can't think. Be back.