"I CANNOT do this and would rather leave it in gods and MY hand one way or the other...
This would FUK up my lifestyle forever!"
Then why do you keep coming back to this forum with your angry responses and deliberately misspelled expletives. No one here caused your health problem. What more do you want from people here? What can they tell you which they haven't already told you? If you are leaving it in God's hands then all you can do is wait and see how things work out.
Water fasting is not a panacea. I have benefited greatly from long water fasts, but I still don't have absolutely perfect health. If Water Fasting is not going to work for you, then there is absolutely nothing that anyone on this forum can do for you. It is nice to believe that every condition can be cured by "natural" methods, but unfortunately that is not the case. I know someone who opted to have a cancerous tumor removed after fasting and nutrition did not shrink it. Life does not always give us the options that we like.