candida depression..

i am new to this and not sure if it's the Depression talking but after a long time of suffering i am told i have candida and leaky gut... candida was the last thing i wanted.. after a lot of time searching on the internet to see what matched my symptoms i was hoping to have more food intolerances or a bacterial imbalance or parasites or something else because of all the horrible things i read on these boards of people suffering and battling it for years and years.. i have no hope that i will get better and i haven't even started.. i have been living for a long time eating mostly whole foods with starchy vegetables and fruits.. no grains, dairy or alcohol or any junk but this wasnt enough.. i have hated all this time and now that i know this diet will have to continue even stricter and without any real indication of how long it could take im just done.. im sick of living i want to go back to my normal life i already had so many other problems that ive had to stop solving because of this and if this is ever gonna be over theyre all going to be right in front of me again. this candida is probably effecting my brain badly right now but i just wish there was an easy way to end my life right now because im not seeing any light at the end of the tunnel.. Tweet