Our illness its not a mystery. Its just very difficult/expensive to treat or diagnose, even while with some research things start getting obvious - not easier, just clearer, those conditions are intended to castrate or destroy you and most of doctors wont help, they dont know it but the reason they cannot help you its because the rulers of the world dont want people to cure and move on... Nowadays I just try to be calm and accept things how they come, doing the best I can, which its obviously not enough lol at least I have got rid of panicking or anxiety.