i'm so glad you're taking MH's advice. Many of us here have been through a "wake-up" phase. Just focus on the here and now. Let yourself soak up the sunshine and smell the flowers. Accept that this is where you're supposed to be in your life right now and focus on doing the best that you can do.
I'm no stranger to worry. It can eat a person up. There are some things we just have to let go of.