Thank you, Trapper!
You hit a nerve. I miss Jesse so much, I can't really believe it. It's been since July 2010 and I'm still hurting every time I think of him. Strange thing is, my son and I talked about it last night. There is NO doubt he loved Jesse more than words could ever say - as such, he was very distressed about how it all happened. It felt good to know he was so aware about it now, but he has no memory of that particular day. I keep hoping that Jesse was taken in by his new family, who love him and care for him as much as we did - because the thought of him perishing in a very public place is unimaginable to me. Yes, I'm still hurting every day I come home and he's not here.
I have no idea what words to change to "fool the spam filters". Would a copy/paste and a different subject do the trick?